I've been putting off making my way to my new local library to get a library card, partially since I still have several books on my shelf I haven't read (plus lots of ebooks downloaded on my e-reader) and partially because I often get nervous about going to new places.

Yesterday, in a moment of confidence, I decided to make a 2 mile walk to the library to get a card and explore my new city a little bit on foot while enjoying the afternoon autumn weather. I went in my old clothes and put on a sweater, a beanie I crocheted, and some jeans, picked out some earrings, and took a quick photo of my boymode for my own posterity and to share on the trans girl Discord server (I hate Discord, by the way).

My journey was pleasant, and I found the library to be really pretty and cozy, although smaller than I expected (luckily the system is expansive and there's lots of books to put on hold from other libraries). The librarian at the circulation desk looked surprised when she saw my ID, which I thought was really amusing. The reception from both the trans girl Discord and the librarian is that my boymode is beginning to fail me. I found two interesting books that I'm excited to read after a brief browse, one of which is The Bezzle by Cory Doctorow.

This morning I had coffee and brunch with a friend of mine, a trans girl who lives in a quaint little town a few miles away from me. I'm just now at a point where I'm comfortable presenting more feminine in public (I probably would have been unable to in this situation if not for her presence). It was easier than I thought it would be, and the people I interacted with were really nice! Walking around the park with her and feeling the breeze and seeing the autumn leaves was so refreshing. I'm still riding the high and probably will be for the foreseeable future, which is a nice change of pace from the dysphoria-induced depression spiral I've been in for the past several weeks.

The other book I picked up from the library was Gender Euphoria by Laura Kate Dale, and I'm now more excited to read it than I was before I picked it up.